I’m sure that everyone thinks that I am this Health Food Guru and that I am on a pedestal of healthy goodness, being bathed by glorious sunshine and steeped in a mountain of vibrant abundance…oh how sweet you all are!!
Well, I’m here to tell you that nothing could be farther from the truth….let me tell you a little secret…looks around to make sure no one else is listening….and whispers……
I STILL STRUGGLE WITH MY DIET AND EXERCISE!!
YEP…….There, I’ve said it…
As a lot of you know, I went Vegan just over a year ago for my health’s sake, I also stopped having processed sugar and cut out as much fats, processed food and junk food as possible..even going RAW until 4.00pm and then having cooked veggies, pasta or rice after that time… I exercised a fair bit and dropped 10 kilos in the process..I became a healthier/happier me….
SO……Why am I telling you all this?
Even the greatest plans (of mice and…er….women) can go horribly wrong unless you keep vigilant at them…..and mine has, through no one else’s fault except my own mind you, gone terribly wrong!!
AND NOW I have to pull in the reigns and try to get where I was a few months ago.
What has changed?
Well, the weather for one ~ take today for instance, it has been cold, wet and windy all day (which does not make one want cold smoothies, juices, fruits and vegetables to partake in), I have just wanted to sit by the open fire all day. Lately we have been so busy with rehearsals, promotion and performances that I haven’t put forethought my dietary needs, hence falling for the old “junk food” trick (and not vegan junk food at that), only this week due to a hectic schedule and pure laziness, I have eaten a Meat Pie, KFC, Pizza, Canned Tuna, Toasted cheese and tomato sandwiches, sweet biscuits and so on…and guess what…….I FEEL LIKE CRAP!!
I have a ganglion on my middle finger of my right hand that has swelled up again (I had almost gotten rid of it), my tummy has bloated and is in constant pain, I feel tired all the time (go to bed tired and wake up tired), I am itchy, nauseous and grumpy (as my family can attest to)..
Another thing is when the weather starts to get cold, I start to hibernate…all I want to do is burrow down under my blankets and go to sleep….no exercise…so hence, I get lazier and lazier…
Whilst I am still home I should be OK right? WRONG!! I am more lazy at home, this is why I think it’s time I start to look for work, something to get my lazy butt up in the morning!!
Oh… I have another excuse too ~ The good fruit and veg supply that is so prominent in Summer has all but dwindled ~ watermelon is now out of season, and although you can get it, it’s bitter and very expensive. Mangoes are gone as most of the summer fruits that I have been living on…now we have the winter fruits coming into season that have been picked unripe and so do not have the full sweetness that they should have when left to ripen on the plants…it doesn’t make me want to eat them. But I guess there are other things I could eat instead…
SO……Why do I do this to myself?
Wouldn’t you think that feeling like poop would be an incentive to make sure I had proper nutrition and plenty of exercise, after-all I am a qualified personal fitness trainer and studying health? Of course your answer would be “certainly!!”
My answer is that unless I am totally organised, I get lazy, I have a lazy personality and I know I HAVE TO CHANGE THIS or I am not going to get anywhere…. I have also got to get into my thick skull that what I need to eat is giving me proper nutrition and a healthier life ~ you see the problem I have is my stupid brain, it thinks it is missing out when others have all sorts of goodies that it used to have, instead ~ I have to rewire my brain… (right now I can smell strawberry shortbreads that Paul is eating and my brain wants them too)….
Caption reads: The toughest part of a diet isn’t watching what you eat ~
it’s watching what other people eat!!
Willpower has never been one of my strongest points, and neither has patience…LOL..
I take full responsibility for my actions and now I know I have to start the process again, if I want to be fabulous at fifty five, then I have to start now!!
I have ordered a DVD called “Forks over Knives” from England ~ people who have seen this documentary have said that it has changed their lives and now they can stick to a plant based died ~ and I am hoping it will do the same for me!! Just waiting patiently (yeah right!!) for my copy to turn up!!
Wish me luck!!