Mellow greetings my lovelies,
I haven’t written about this subject for a very long time: WITCHCRAFT.
WARNING: THIS IS GOING TO BE A LONG BLOG POST!!
I seem to have lost my way over the last few years, however I am now looking into my WITCHCRAFT journey as I feel I NEED this now more than ever. I have let the so called “normal” world take it’s place and I find myself drained, lacking in energy and motivation to complete the simplest of tasks. I find I suffer more from depression and the miseries a lot, and find myself just sitting on my derrière and dwelling on it. Diet has a bit to do with it, which I am endeavouring to clean up , as does exercise, which I am trying to do half an hour a day walking plus some gym work during the week (in our home gym in the garage) – but there is also another aspect – spirituality and nature awareness is needed to feel more complete. I NEED this – always have and always will – to me, Witchcraft is a Nature based belief, and to me (my spirit) very essential.
I usually keep the witchy side of my life to myself, mainly because people can be so judgemental and nasty, but now I do want to sort of totally “Come out of the broom closet” so to speak. Some of you who already know me personally understand that I have been this way for a very, very long time. I just didn’t want you the new reader, to be shocked thinking that I have changed my tact from Health Professional to Witch overnight – as I do want to start talking about my witchy journey (as well as my health journey) in future posts – let me explain further:
Ever since I was a wee slip of a girl I have been at one with nature, looking how things grow, how insects and animals interact with the earth, how the earth turns, how people mistreat the earth and it’s beings etc., and have always been interested in WITCHCRAFT.
I remember being in this huge field filled with buttercups when I was young, lying down amongst them and looking at the bright blue skies, just breathing in the scents and the warm air – being thankful to mother nature for putting it there for me to become one with, it just seemed so magical – I felt so blessed (yes even back then I was very intense!!).
My Mother being a stout Christian, didn’t like the idea of her daughter mixing in those circles, I’m sure she thought that I was going to get involved with DEVIL worshippers and have sex orgies etc,..LOL, and she tried through the years to get me interested in going to Church. (well actually I was forced to every Sunday) – It just didn’t seem real to me, I couldn’t “just have faith” that the God spoken about in the bible was viable. I couldn’t see him and how could he allow all the atrocities in the world to happen if he indeed was a loving God…I tried, I really did – right up into my adult life – but I found the bible to be truly horrific, full of killings and revenge, not at all a nice story to embrace, nothing to enhance ones spirit, all those parables that could have more than one meaning (sick of hearing every Sunday that I was going to hell, and that obviously you are not praying hard enough if things keep going wrong for you…it’s your fault, you should be on your knees 24/7 praying for forgiveness). But I had to oblige up to a certain point as I was living under her roof. I survived by going for very long walks in nature, sitting and earthing myself.
My Dad however, got off scot free – he never went to Church, he just pottered around in his garden, growing veggies and flowers and herbs and all sorts of things. He was the one who taught me all about nature and animals, the seasons, what to do, what not to do, when to do it, moon cycles etc., he was pagan and didn’t even know it.
When I was old enough to go to the local library I sought out books to do with witchcraft, wicca, paganism and the occult as I was fascinated with them, and over the years I have gained knowledge and nurtured that side of me so as to be more of an eclectic witch and green witch, basically taking bits and pieces from other witchcraft paths and making one that resonates with me and my garden on a spiritual level.
Books are my friends and my teachers, we have a whole library of books here at the Darkwench Castle – there is never nothing to read at any time.
Most Witchcraft is far from that ideal of satanism (as dear Mother would have thought it to be). In most witchcraft there is no belief in Satan or the Devil, there is a belief in good and evil, black and white, yin and yang, in other words a balance of the light side and the dark side (feels like breaking into Darth Vader mode when I say this…LOL). Yes there are some that do worship and believe in Satan, but I prefer to call them Satanists and not Witches, Wizards or Warlocks. Most of us are not fanatics that wave our wands around willy-nilly, we mostly sit in nature, listening to the earth and it’s inhabitants, breathing the air, receiving the water and earth as it provides for us, feeling the warmth of the sun as it rises in the east and sets in the west. I am an introverted witch, I steal inside myself to capture the spirit of the elements and ground myself to them.
I am a qualified herbalist, so yes – I do make up concoctions (potions, lotions, creams, tisanes, infusions and more) for my health and that of others if they so require, from my garden. I make my own smudge sticks to purify and cleanse my house and property. My garden is sacred to me and as of late I have let it down severely with neglect. I will have to spend a lot of time out there and get it sorted so I can get it flourishing as before.
I also use RUNES, TAROT cards and ORACLE cards to give support and information regarding pathways to those who seek it. I bought some lovely oracle cards the other day that just speak to me – The Faery Forest by Lucy Cavendish. I love each and every card in this pack. I have never used oracle cards before because I didn’t like some of the cards – but as I said, these ones speak to me.
So hopefully, after much study – I will be using these fairly soon.
I have also started to dress a bit more “witchy”, I haven’t done so for such a long time – my hubby is happy because he says he loves his witchy wife and wants me to dress to who I am, not to societies ideal. (I tell ya, I love that man to the moon and back – he is THE most supportive person I have ever met).
Anyway, so now I am looking at furthering my spiritual journey as well as my health journey…it’s just a total DARKWENCH JOURNEY, and this is after all what this blog is supposed to be about.
Even if you do not agree with my choices, I hope that you come back to my blog and catch up with me when you can – just park your broom (if you have one), pull up a chair by the hearth and have a cuppa with me – the cauldron is always bubbling!!
But for now I bid thee a good night!